Touched

I said emo post. But I really wanna post this.PEISHI SEEN ALL MY VLOGS IN A DAY! I only did tt to other people's channel but its the first time ppl did tt to me. Im really touched. She also told me this on msn.


You have the passion and talent all you need nw is perservance. you may nt get what u want nw cos whatever that is easy to Achieve is nt glorious enough.
20:29
No matter hw many times Audi or interviews it whatever comp may fail u may put u down but
20:59
What's mostimpt is to keep the passion and keep persuing what you want ad love
21:41
For me is dance. No matter hw financial factor or fondation factor may stop me from gng to laselle but I won't give up
22:10
I know what I want in life just like you . U love fliming acting and arts! Go ahead
23:02
Your parents may nt see your potential words may brig you down but jingyan! Trust me! Stand up, work hard! Go all out for what you love and prove those ppl wrong!
23:21
Yo can do it and I always believe in you!
24:13
I know it's nt easy.. Cos soon I will be gng through smth like you. But im gonna do my best, achieve what I want in life. Get all I desire. Prove ppl wrong!
24:29
Brig arts into the world and change ppl life!
25:24
It's nvr easy it will be tough gng but as long as you are willing to accept critisim and feedback, imprve on it! You can do it man!
26:14
Nobody imagined human can be in sky till wright brothers do smth! Nobody knows arts can be so impactful until someone is willing tk go all out
26:58
And I believe you can be that someone! Jiayou jy! I see the potential in you! You can and I know you can do it!
27:30
Just don't give up!! By anything or anyone! Becase you didn't come so far to let all this go!
27:51
If you fail try agn, if fail agn, try harder till u get there






Peishi I love you=) Thank you for all tt you did=)

Zibei

While waiting for the WMM to render my video. I decided to blog again. I feel so zhibei with my video editing skills.

I really wanna make it big in this industry and I feel so helpless with that.

Last night Arthur said after he seen Ivan and my video. He wanted to start filming also. The thing is he looks up to me. And i tell him. I suck at making videos.

I just feel so zibei.

Kevjumba had made his online web series and a original MV

What what have I achieved?

I feel zibei.

And I really wanna make a nice video and many ppl will watch it and spread it ard singapore and even the whole of Asia.

Not just funny, but depth as well.

Hais

Zibei.

I wonder who know how I feel abt making videos.

...

After reading the previous post. I felt better.

Slightly.

I duuno why but typing my emotions out is so much better. I think no one will read this though. My friends whom I care abt doesn't seemed to care abt me too.

Haha.

Yea, all these time there are ppl who smsed and encouraged me. I thank God for you all but.

Maybe I'm just selfish.

I want the whole world to pay attention to me.

I dunno what I want.

There's a hole in my heart.

I correct.

Its a void.

A big mass of nothing-ness.

I'm going crazy.

God help me.

Emo

I guess when Im really down and I feel that when I have no one to talk to. I'll blog. I think no one read it anyway. Twitter is too short and facebook is too open. Well, what can I say?

I cant vlog nowadays. I can vlog like how i vlog last times. I'm so sad nowadays. I just can help it but to feel down and unwanted all the time.

I want to rise up. I want to lead. I want to influence once again. But I know im not there yet. Spiritually or what not. But Im not there yet. I want to be be a COC again. But how?

At some part of me. I really need you. I wanted somebody to love me and in return loves me back. But who really knows what I want?

To justify, yes I still love God. Just tt. Its not agape. He knows. But the thing is. I want someone. A human. to do tt to me as well.

Im a joker who feels lonely. Im high infront of you all. But when we leave for home. You dunno how my eyes turns.

Im sad.

I nv knew tt I can type and tear at the same time.

And Im a guy.

Why am I feeling this way?

God help me.

I need your help.

Argggh Fuck.