Dark side

I guess everyone has their darker side. I think I just found mine. I really hate it when im alone. I dunno why Im like that now. As time passes by. I feel more and more insecure. Girls to me now are just friends already. Can I ever find someone I truly like and likes me back? Or do i have to suffer this alone? My intelligence has finally got the better of me. I used to said this, "I hate stupid women", "I like conversations that has depth with a lady". but I cant find that person. Do I really going to be alone? Guys right now are studying buddies. We are called friends but there are no depths in our friendship. We laugh at the gals, the 4 wonders. Predicting that their friendship will fallout. WHAT ABT US? Dint you realize there's a BIG problem coming between us? Can't you see my shortened patience when there's a discussion with you all? How come when we're in the sub comm. I'm not always with you? I don't want to be a leader and lead you all always. Yes I like to be an influence-er. But you know wad is called a burnout?

And you my best friend. You're slipping away from that original meaning of that word already you know that? Since when you took interest in my life? All i hear from you is how confident you are from courting this gal when her distance to you is like further den the distance from earth from the furthest star. How you wanted to be the vice-chairman of the class when it's SO Inappropriate. Have you ever go and understand how would Amy feel? Why would the class needs THREE reps? WHY? don't tell me you wanted SEAL points because I would never believe it. I know you want to be a leader. You want to be a positive influence to a grp of people. Why dont you influence me 1st? Dude, you know wads the meaning of "walk the walk and don't talk the talk?". All these thing are kept inside me for so long, I need to type it out of I'll go crazy like really.

Is it really my fault that I always look on people's flaws and telling ppl them that? I really want you to change to become better you know? I always reflect on myself too! But how come you all CANNOT accept the hard truths in life sometimes? arent you all old enough to have a basic mental tenecity to handle scoldings? hais. Why can I react differently and positively to katerine's scolding when you all cannot handle little snippets of my crictial comments that is helpful? WHY?